Wei Wei

2010-09-15T20:43:00.000+08:00

Really felt damn loser today

Today is a bad day :(

I lost my ear piece and my GP revision is going nowhere.

Really I need to stop losing things or one day, I’ll lose myself.

damn it

2010-09-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

lala back to post a post after months of leaving this blog dead haha
these few months had been really hectic be it guitar or academically.
guitar so far the concerts are all over and the next big thing is SYF.. got to see angela, my ex school mate and best friend from primary school cause of the combined convert :D
academic wise, promos coming, head over heels with PW haha

been mugging in and out of house these few days.. really fun mugging with teo ee and jasmine.. Went to tamp on sat to mug with teo ee and jasmine and saw yongjing, taoqin, pearlyn and the 45 gang there. got suaned by teo ee :(

on sun, teo ee came down to sengkang to mug with me :D got to do more work than the previous day and still fun :D haha

went to sch on monday to have gp lesson and do pw.
stayed home today and yesd to do work and going school again tmr but mugging with xinyue this time in school :DD

oh wellls, promos round the corner must take care of myself. haha been sneezing the whole day. lala

i suppose no one comes here anymore so im just typing out crap for fun :D hahaha

2010-05-22T12:55:00.002+08:00

haha ok back like after nearly a month to revive my very dead blog LOL

but it'll be dead soon since i'll be leaving for china on monday for a month

blogger is banned in china -.-

haha

anyway, i'll be going to shanghai world expo! :D

yay :D

hmm school these few days are really taxing

there's alot of work and test coming along

there's GP common test on wed and i'm taking it in China

LOL

oh wells

super junior released their new album quite a few days back BONAMANA! ♥

2010-04-30T16:40:00.001+08:00

grr im sick and im stuck with tons of homework at home and i can't go to the post concert celebration later. URGH i WANT TO GO.
haha for once i want to act like a spoilt child -.-

oh wells
whatever

got myself a twitter account like finally -.-

2010-04-25T13:38:00.008+08:00

yesterday was guitar concert haha

really once in a life time experience LOL

first time performing on stage

first time getting flowers and presents for my performance (thanks to all who gave me stuff :D)

first time performing halfway with a sudden black out.

HAHA

Timepiece II: Dreams

~~was supposed to be a really nice concert~~

haha wrong. IS a really nice concert. Though the blackout was unexpected, but it really and i believe left a really memorable memory in all the audience's mind :D

of course, not forgetting the performers ourselves who managed to pull through the concert :D

like what Kevin said :" the guitars can actually sound for GEE and Dream Medley" :D hahaha

i suppose this is really what people term as 因祸得福 haha

but really i want to thank everyone, fellow GE members, the audiences and the emcees for making this Timepiece II such an unforgettable one especially for myself :D

Even though i knew that what you said last night was not true, but sometimes, leaving a lie unexposed would make things much better for you and for me. I suppose that the lie would be something for me to at least be able to deceive myself with.

2010-04-14T21:20:00.004+08:00

I wonder what is the definition of friends?
People who you see everyday?
People who sits beside you?
People who you say hi and bye to?
To me, that is not friends.
Friends are people who you can talk to and they talk to you
Friends are people who are not afraid to tell you "Hey i think you have changed..."
Friends are people who you can connect with
Friends are not people who say something at the start of the year, but at end of the month, whatever they say, don't hold true anymore
Friends are people who you like spending time with and they like spending time with you
Friends are people who WILL NOT backstab you

So i guess, that's the reason why there are such words as friends and classmates and schoolmates and CCA mates. Why they have different names when these who bunch of people can be collectively be known as "friends".

These few months, i've really been thinking and feeling. Sometimes, i have no idea what is wrong. I see "friends" floating away from me, i see people getting and walking out of my life. I see myself as someone who is not welcomed into the group. I really don't know what is wrong. Whatever it is, be it you call it emo or whatever, i don't want to give a damn. Cause this is my own space and i can choose to write what i want about my own feelings here as long as i don't target it at anyone or be offensive. I don't see anything wrong in just treating this place as a place for me to just vent my frustrations. Really.

Perhaps, since you want me to shut up and get out of your life, i'll do it. I won't be of any disturbance or hindrance to you anymore. Don't worry.

2010-04-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

lol as tempted as i would want to post the conv between me and jasmine on msn, i know that she'll kill me if i do.

LOL
but i can say that
jasmine is crazy and head over heels <3 with jang guen suk alr (aka the guy in the 3 photos in the previous post)
LOL LOL

haha jasmine arh jasmine LOL

so sad he's having the meet session on guitar concert day right LOL LOL

2010-04-05T21:20:00.002+08:00

SO CUTE! :D

aww jasmine i know you're jealous HAHAH
i know you heart him but he's not yours HAHAHAHAHA

2010-04-05T18:40:00.020+08:00

:D

每个人的生命里都存在着许许多多的配角，而自己也是许许多多的人的的人的生日中的一个配角而已。就像在电影，在电视剧里，都有也都存在着猪教育配角。刚看完了韩剧“是美男啊 – You’re Beautiful”。虽然情节就有如其他的韩剧一样，但是却不尽还是让我一直想。配角常常总是在剧中失去自己喜爱的人，总是看着自己喜爱的人与男/女主叫“从此过着幸福的生活”。在现实生活里，我们就真能如此的潇洒吗?我想，应该不行吧。然而在生命里，若在某人的生命旅程里，我的角色是属于一个配角，那么，也就永远会是属于一个配角。不过，我也知道，在另一个人的生命的剧本里，当演主角的将会是自己。

主角与配角的差别就是配角的角色永远会是“我将会失去。。。。”而主角的角色则是“我将可以和。。。过着幸福的生活”吗？但虽然当配角是逃不掉的。但是我并不想失去什么。或许，我是自私吧。但我想，我也是一个比较感性的人。虽然感性，但我却也不善于用言语来表达自己。曾有那么一段时间，我曾经告诉过自己，我能也不要再看电视剧了，尤其是韩剧。因为很多时候，这些剧情让我觉得他们脱离了现实，让我觉得当中的幻想与“希望”很假，让人喘不过气来。因为，在现实生活里，这些并不会出现，或至少，在我自己所能看到的现实里，他们很难想象会出现。我不想再继续做一个做梦的女孩了，因为现实并不允许。过去，我用了种种的方式包围了自己，让人看到一个不真实地握。以后，或许这些围墙会化解，但目前，我知道，这些围墙会继续扩将。原因很简单，因为我害怕受到伤害。

看韩剧，看到生命中的不平，感动，伤心可以哭。但，现实生活里，我不能哭。

“You’re Beautiful – Jeremy”:사링해요是很美好的字

2010-03-28T20:47:00.003+08:00

phew finally almost caught up with the tutorials that is supposed to be done :D

hehe

had a squad outing last friday :D (not really squad outing but it was a squad dinner)
really fun :D
around 16 of us turned up :D
haha

anyway tmr school starting again
sigh
but oh wells
have to buck up
bought assessment books today :D
will strive to complete them asap
and tackledown the textbooks too
T.T
tt one can die

oh wells
i'll survive w/o turning into a mugger
HAHAHA

till then
cya :D

2010-03-25T21:49:00.003+08:00

hehe i saw this just now when i was looking for suju mvs to play while doing work.. LOL

super super super cute :D
hehehe

2010-03-22T18:56:00.001+08:00

i miss my squad ~~~

2010-03-21T20:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYUE!! :D

sigh i'm still doing an lao shi's CSC homework

zzz

it's damn difficult

and i still have my guitar prac

my chem revision to do

how :(

nevermind i'll manage

hehe

i tied up my hair o.o

that was random LOL nevermind

i don't understand why people like snsd esp the run devil run so much. LOL

nice meh? HAHA

nvm bye :D

2010-03-17T21:06:00.004+08:00

it's a great feeling when one day, your best friend from primary school starts to msn you and say "hey! i saw you today! :D", plastered with a big smile in the sentence. It's like you haven't been talking to her since you left primary school nor have you seen her, but hey, she still remembers me. LOL
i'm serious, it's a really great feeling to know that your childhood friend didn't forget you even though years may have passed.
Though i didn't get to see her today, but i'm still very happy cause at least i know, she remembers and i'll remember her too.

Angela was my best friend from primary school and we used to be able to talk, to laugh about any thing just like any other best friends. But we lost contact and talked less after we were split into different classes and left to study in different school. But she came for the guitar exchange programme today and she saw me :D
i'm really glad i emceed for the programme. If not, i doubt she'll be able to spot me, nor would i have know that she's actually there..

haha today had half the day spent at HCI for my lunwen rehearsal. Must learn to slow down the speed in which i talk but oh wells. HAHA

Today's a really really happy day and i'm really happy
cause one point in time, i thought i'll never meet or talk to my primary school friends ever again. I thought that our paths only crossed that much 6 years backs, but how wrong i was. HAHA

JIAYOU PEPOPLE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA! :D

2010-03-16T14:03:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEITH! :D

2010-03-12T22:15:00.002+08:00

haha just read nicholas's blog post

gave me quite a few things to think about

but actually this has been coming, especially after what has happened over the past few days

i realise all along it's been a matter of whether we want or we can

we want to do something

but we cant do it

how ironic it may be seeming

isn't there something like 铁棒磨成针 and "when there's a will, there's a way"

but i suppose the world isn't this simple

and alot of things are beyond our control

oh wells

nvm i shan't start an emo post here

ok i got back my bio, maths, chem and GP

bio and maths were horrible

chem and GP is OK :D

miraculously i passed GP

haha

was at HCI for lunwen rehearsal today

and HCI's got a real nice campus

at least from where i was

LOL

but yes it is pretty

tmr, got guitar

sunday, got tuition

monday, got guitar

tuesday, maths extra lessons (maybe)

wednesday, lunwen rehearsal plus guitar

thursday, maths extra lessons (maybe)

friday, guitar

saturday, lunwen symposium

sunday, tuition

monday, school reopens

wow what a holiday -.-

2010-03-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

lala i didnt do as badly for bio as i expected though it is still as bad but oh wells

i ran today! :D

with beloved teo ee :D

haha

but at least i ran

my stamina sucks big time right now

oh wells

must rmb to bring towel next time

then can wash face after i run

if not my face will be as red as the straws at the drink stall uncle

opps

haha

maths test is postponed

but sure if it's good or bad

but i guess i'll have more time to mug bah

thurs is a half day cause of the A lvls results

but oh wells

at least i have lessons on that day

better than some people who go to school for two hours yet they dont have lesson

o.o

lalala

i need to go do my bsp lunwen ppt le =x

byee

let's all smile and make this world a better place for you and me :D

2010-03-08T20:09:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNRONG! :D

2010-03-06T20:39:00.003+08:00

❤HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! :D ❤

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAXTER! :D

2010-02-27T18:28:00.002+08:00

the girls had their cc comp today :D
and from what i know, they did a good job
yay
haha

tests
ppts
guitar reauditions
oh no for me
haha
but oh wells
that's life

i just received some sms that made me super happy
their flagstaff was well done
hehehehe
yay

lala bye!

2010-02-25T19:12:00.004+08:00

:D

:D

:D

:D

hahaha new songs on playlist :D
songs by jerry hehe
enjoy the songs :D

[edit]

haha my suju fever dying down le haha

not that i dont like them as much anymore

but at least im not as crazy as before watching their videos every other day

which is phew

with all the tests and assignments and tutorials weighing down

lol

习惯两个人不见不散
习惯一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散　

不再坚强对寂寞丧失抵抗

bye!

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2010-02-23T22:48:00.003+08:00

hmm i screwed my maths test today oh wells

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TEO EE! :D

tmr got mock napfa

die

i havent recover from the muscle aches from fri and sat

i wonder if i can survive tmr

haha

there's guitar tmr too! :D

oh wells

it's a short post :D

[edit] i didn't have my mock napfa afterall. it's next week haha so im still very much alive and kicking :D hehe

[/edit]

2010-02-21T16:53:00.002+08:00

whether is it a failure, or a success life goes on as per normal. It won't slow down it's footstep for you to moan over your failure. A day will always be 24 hours, 60 mins an hour and 60 seconds per minute and this would never change.

It won't weep with you because you failed

it won't jump with joy with you because you succeed

i suppose that is really true

anyway, for those that wanna know, i didn't get into sc

hmm maybe i was kinda down at first but it was sort of expected too anyway

but yeah i'm perfectly fine now :D

actually i'm fine the moment i left school yesterday

i suppose it's good for me too bah

since i have guitar, bsp, quiz comp and my own academics

without sc, i should be able to juggle them better and i don't need to give up anyone of them

anyway, tests are waiting for me when i get back to school on monday

sigh and i have muscle aches all over

i don't feel like moving

LOL LOL

i wonder why are guys so against k-pop

haha

though i know there are a handful who likes snsd -.-

btw i dislike them

haha

oh wells

jiayou to the rest who got into sc! :D

2010-02-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHIN KIAT!! :D

2010-02-18T21:01:00.002+08:00

Hmm today i did some thinking in between lessons

yesterday someone told me something and it was thought provoking to me.

why did things turn out like that between the two of us?

what did i do?

or is it because you've made your decision, you've decided to throw this friend of yours here away too because i'm already of no use?

or is it that i've never even been your friend, just a tool for you to use to talk to, to get consolation from when you needed help then?

then, all i can say is that i'm just sad

i'm not angry at you

sad that why must people be friends only when they have something to do for each other? when they are of use to each other?

i don't understand

perhaps you won't even see this

perhaps you don't even know that i'm referring to you

but if you do see this and know that i'm referring to you,

i would really like to know what happened between the two of us...

even if i seem nonchalant about it, it doesn't mean that i don't care or i haven't noticed..

2010-02-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIQI!! :D

2010-02-14T14:00:00.003+08:00

HAHA

damn funny

recommended by jasmine (Lee)

laughed like mad LOL

(rmb to stop the music at the side before playing the video :D)

2010-02-14T12:26:00.029+08:00

HAHA saw this on hangeng's cy and found it damn cool.. it contains the name of all the 13 suju members :D (in colour)

亲们，利用这新春佳节，我特别给你送上最有爱的祝福！希望你在信的一年里，澈底摆脱霉运!和我一样有韩情脉脉的眼神，庚我一样迷人！还希望你有艺术的声音，强健的体魄，仁慈的心，有神奇的魅力，儿童般的天真，晟实的心，敏捷的动作，有知恩图报的心，有赫斯之威!再祝你家老人福如东海你天天都得到始源钱小面额的零花钱！祝你有美丽的笑容，每天都想旭日东升一样充满活力，打下新基业，当人民心中的模范再长得奎梧些，还要贤慧些~~最后，用我宝蓝色的心，祝你新年快乐！身体健康！加油！我爱你们~~~

利特- Lee Teuk
希澈 - Hee Chul
韩庚 - Han Geng
艺声 - Ye Sung
强仁 - Kang In
神童 - Shin Dong
晟敏 - Sung Min
恩赫 - Eyun Hyuk
东海 - Dong Hae
始源 - Si Won
丽旭 - Ryeo Wook
基范 - Ki Bum
奎贤 - Kyu Hyun

hee damn cool right :D
happy new year to all again!
this morning i saw sjm's performance on tv
:D
yay but they dont look happy cause it was the 2010 countdown party, a few days after hangeng file the lawsuit against sm and they were performing w/o him.. anw tt's the reason why they dont look happy i think. LOL
may not be true.. haha maybe they're just tired. LOL

2010-02-13T18:00:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2010-02-12T21:37:00.014+08:00

❤HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!❤

❤HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!❤

anyway today has been really really tiring.
im really tired
but i still got pile of hwk staring back at me
sigh i need to do a proper time management schedule

anyway
im sorry 4k for not going for the steamboat .. :(
wish i could be there but oh wells
we can't get everything in our way can we?
and ncps had their celebration today
and i couldnt go back
cause i ended my lessons late
i thought it was on wed
i havent been there since sec1 and i really want to go back

haha anyway
nevermind..

2010-02-09T20:53:00.004+08:00

庚，生日快乐！！

생일축하합니다 한경!

haha it's his birthday today! :D
yay :D
my mood is super good now
though i just did some super frustrating maths assignment but oh wells
hahaha
:D

[edit]

HE FINALLY POSTED ON HIS CYWORLD TODAY AT 3PM

OH GOSH

IM FREAKING HAPPY NOW

:D:D:D

CAUSE HE FINALLY POSTED AFTER 2 MONTHS OF SILENCE!

YAY!!

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2010-02-07T23:34:00.015+08:00

it's in contrast with this photo

can yall like see hankyung in the pic?
it's all formed by words
only tt i cant coopy and paste the words here cause of some formatting porb.
it looks damn screwed
so i saved it into a pic instead
haha but damn damn damn cool :D

1 day and 9 mins
hankyung's birthday! :D

2010-02-04T18:41:00.016+08:00

“其实我到现在才发现

喜欢跟爱的差别

喜欢可以很多人但是爱却只有一个”

- 薛海/林达浪

aww hahaha
was watching hi my sweetheart last ep and :D
LOL anyway need to go do work le -.-

btw
i went to comics connection at my hse there with huangching today :D
she spammed suju postcards and calendars
while i only bought 4 calendars which cost 1 buck
HAHA

yay i got another mortal :D
playing with 4K now :D
hahaha
yay and i know what to buy for my mortal :D
lala

2010-01-31T18:17:00.003+08:00

i want to go to super show 2 in m'sia :( :(
but i know it's impossible
sigh
sigh
sigh

will suju ever come to spore? hais
i hope so
LOL

anyway, still on my thesis grr
must chiong
next mon,wed,sat all booked
i never seem to have a day to myself
when quiz comp starts, it's going to be worst
sigh
jyjy
and i realise i havent even done any of the gp tutorials and quiz
shit
bye

2010-01-30T21:37:00.003+08:00

the song is really very very very nice :D
haha im starting to like SHINee too :D

2010-01-29T21:23:00.002+08:00

hmm week 2 has already past in a flash.

classes have been fine and classmates are really nice :D

anw just to update on the previous week, the haimen people came over and i hosted one.

shan't elaborate much on it

anyway, this year can really see everyone is in the mugger mode.

everyone or almost everyone is seen doing tutorials since the start of school

really must start to mug le

this sat and next sat i'm booked

next mon, wed and fri all booked too

sigh

oh and my editted lunwen is due on tues too

sigh

rush rush rush

Anyway, I’ve successfully curbed myself from going to watch suju videos ever since school reopened
Which is good news haha
But listening to their songs sort of became a routine and a habit
People know that when they see me with my ears plugged with ear piece, sure is cause im listening to suju songs
LOL
Anyway, I’ll update my suju song list :D
Too bad to those tt don’t like suju or the Korean wave LOL
After graduating from year 4, idk I think I sort of changed
In a good or bad way idk but yeah
Oh oh btw I saw my pri sch chi tcher today at dhoby ghaut and he remembers me!!! :D
Yay and he also knows tt I graduated in 2005 :D
Lol shld be going back to ncps during cny bah :D
Valentines or rather friendship day is coming soon :D
Not cause I have ahem but cause I can know who my angel is LOL
Our class playing angel and motel with 6c37 LOL LOL

haha anyway

jiayou ppl

and kirin jiayou

and kirin candidates jiayou

and W.W.W jiayou too! :D

2010-01-16T19:12:00.005+08:00

haha
got a bit crazy today
anw i'm back from camp!
KAMATEI KAMATEI KIRIN KIRIN!
:D
:D
hahah

anw
yay!
ryeowook
donghae
hankyung
siwon!
:D
:D

i didnt lose my voice btw which is o.o
cause usu i'll lose my voice by the 2nd day haha
anw
china people coming tomorrow
gonna fetch them at the airport
tmr my tuitio starts too zzz
save me man
hahahaha
cya!
:D

guitar cheat our feelings
acorn is NOT easier than dream
haha

2010-01-10T20:22:00.004+08:00

my mood sort of sank after dinner
the atmosphere at home isn't good at all
not cause of fighting or stuff
but got some other stuff happening
i got kind of speechless after that
at a lost too
idk havent felt like that before

tomorrow is starting school
getting back o lvls higher chinese results too
i completely forgot about it
i dont wish to go back to school all of a sudden
how i wish i could go back to p1 or p2
where i knew nothing
nothing to worry about
just being me and being happy everyday
i guess that would be enough
i just want a peaceful and quiet life
that's all i'm going to hope for right now

just let me emo for once today
my dad said that this year will be tough for him and mum
and if we do have any problems
we can only try to resolve it ourselves or just 把它忍下来
they will be facing alot more stress and won't have the time and energy to care about other stuff
stuff all seems to be in a mess right now
i really hope 明天会更好
2010 isn't going as well as it should have been for me
just 10 days into the year, and i'm dropped with this bomb

perhaps
i should just
...

~~i'm smiling~~

2010-01-08T18:51:00.003+08:00

haha ok i've neglected this blog for a few days already which is good, at least im not posting like every other day and i doubt i wil have the time anyway. LOL
hmm i have happiness filling me all of a sudden
i suppose is cause of the stuff that have been happening these few days
from the xplore to guitar etc :D

btw XPLORE was really really really fun :D
thanks to all those that were in my grp, route 2 in 3D :D
Shi Yue
Rachel Yong
Si Ning
Jolene
Shi Hui
Ann
Liu Ping

Shang Zhi
Johnathan
Yi Xuan
Ervin
Timothy
thanks guys! :D

hmm guitar today was much better i suppose haha
didnt make as much bludder as the other time LOL
but still got room for improvement

today the lawsuit is starting o.o
wonder how well did it go for him

haha ok gtg cya! :D
school is starting on mon
orientation too
can't wait? HAHA :D

2009-12-31T21:53:00.005+08:00

yay my mum is back today! with my sis :D

a sup nice way to end off 2009

hmm ok now for the EOY post

haha

many things happened in 2009

from academics to cca to social life to even suju HAHA

people came and left and of course many stayed

im really glad and happy to have those around me to be around me right now this very moment

that we're still friends and we still can talk and laugh about stuff

there are also those that used to be close but we grew apart and talked alot less

well to those, i hope we can sustain in 2010 and those times when we were close, it's been a really nice memory :D

from 4k'09 to 5c46'10, kirin

from npcc to guitar

from UG and performing arts wow

haha

from a person who use to laugh and not understand why are ppl crazy over idols to going gaga over one herself

from always been emoish to being more open and happier

from destesting dresses and saying she'll never wear one to wearing one during YEP

from swearing like nobody's business to curbing nyself more though it varies in circumstances

from hating biology to taking biology as my subject next year

from blogging emo posts to weird, funny and hangeng posts

from shutting down blogs to reopening them again

from getting comforted to comforting others

2009, has really been eventful

and im really blessed and grateful to have spent another 365 days with my friends and loved ones

hopeful in the many many other 365 days to come, i'll still have you in my life

and here i really want to thank jasmine for tolerating all my nonsensical stuff for i think 7 years or so already. going 8 next year in 2 hrs time :D

of course and many many others such as fiona for 4 yrs, squadmates, classmates esp 4k :D

and those that recently who have been taking in all my suju and hankyung nonsense

THANK YOU!
謝謝!
감사합니다 !
ありがとうございます!

and ending off with a photo that never fails to make me laugh

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2009-12-30T22:49:00.003+08:00

came back from ecp guitar bbq outing 18 mins ago

damn sweaty and sticky

but very very very fun :D

played vall, cling cling, and all sorts of weird game

then after dinner sat at the beach singing and playing weird games

HAHA

damn fun :D

guitar session today is ok i suppose

but im damn guilty cause i cant play properly.

one reason is cause i never prac enough

sigh

guilt

nevermind i will buck up and play nicely by the 5th :D

lala

ok i shld go bath now

bye

im falling asleep from the excitement

snooze..

~_~

[edit]

mum's coming home tmr! :D

yay!

finally

i miss her food and her naggings

why isn't anyone tagging?

sigh my tagboard is dead LOL

maybe i shld just delete the blog

HAHA

since i can always blog somewhere else

hahahahaha

hmm see first..

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2009-12-27T21:39:00.003+08:00

Belated Merry Christmas to everyone!
did everyone have a fun christmas? :D

Haha ok now i know life without my mum sucks cause we are practically eating out almost every dinner and i'm sick of the food outside -.-
Well, i did cook sometimes but my dad said that the food failed -.-
HAHA oh wells
tmr - guitar and orientation dry run
it's going to be a busy and runabout day.
tmr is the release of the subj combinations + class day
i wonder what class i'll go to.
LOL
prac guitar (dream and ponyo) but it's killing me :(
havent eactly touched guitar for sometime considering that i went to USA for 2 weeks..
haha nvm jyjy

if u can see or have realised, i'm restraining myself from blogging anything about suju or sjm or esp hankyung for this post.
cause i was talking to "A" (shant disclose the person's name since it's not very nice that im posting abt our conv and w/o permission LOL) yesd saying tt i need to control myself and he said that if i don't i'll die when sch reopens cause cannot conc.
haha cannot cannot. must conc then i can go to brown mah :D
p.s. my goal is to go to brown uni now HAHAHAHA
then he said sth abt after looking at these korean guys for me and girls for him haha, he said tt itll be sianed when we look at the guys/girls in sch LOL!!
and he compared hankyung with someone HAHAH and i totally agree. LOL.
not that the person don't look good but in a diff way. HAHA
and no offence k :D
all of the above is to be meant as a joke. HAHA
anw, going to sch tmr, tues and wed all for guitar. then going for the next few days perhaps until sch reopens so that i can use the library for my lunwen. need to chiong alr.
jyjy!!
:D
:D
i believe i can fly~
i believe i can touch the sky~
i believe i am in the air~
i believe i can fly up height~
i believe i can fly~~

:D

:D

:D

im out of my mind LOL
(p.s my dad is blasting some orchestra music on tv right now -.- perhaps that's the source of my craziness HAHA)

2009-12-25T13:04:00.002+08:00

:(
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:(
:(
i don't know why but after i read this article, i got kind of sad. not depressed/distressed or anything, but just sad. somehow something like people not acknowledging the hardwork you've put in for a certain thing. and i believe a few of you out there understands this feeling. It's not a nice one and even worse esp if you have to put on a strong front looking as though you don't mind and smiling at everyone else.
perhaps, the world is like that. often, we neglect people and the hardwork they have put in...

如果你是庚饭，相信你一定会看下去。如果你是通过韩庚而认识SJ，认识你的本命的，也请你看下去。如果你是团饭，也希望你看下去~~~~~~~

我只知道我看过后，心里很疼，说不出的难受和纠结。我当即就把我手机的壁纸从希澈换成了韩庚。我的本命是希澈，我转载这篇文，只是想说：我们不是庚饭的唯饭是不是把韩庚遗忘太久了？？？？？？？

1212演唱会，大吧因为举韩庚灯牌的问题闹了别扭，但是现在，我觉得我完全可以理解。如果我可以掌控一切，也许我会让韩庚的灯牌比其他12只多一个，尽管我是花瓣！！！！！

不喜欢我所说的，亲们可以54~~~~~~~
一、
我说，我们给他什么，不如说，我们能给他什么。

我们能给他的其实很少，算起来，喊出他的名字，为他加油，为他举灯牌，也不过如此。
这些听起来并不难。
但若是，在前面加上一个【只】字呢。
你能不能，只喊他的名字，只为他加油，只为他举灯牌呢？

我们能给他的，其实不少。
我们的爱加起来，很大很大，大到能填满那个我们爱着的孩子的心。
让他站在舞台上的时候，不孤单不寂寥。

我说，我们的存在，对他来说，真的很重要。

二、

我去过去年十一月的MKMF。
那是我第一次见到他，却是想永远封存的记忆。
他连走路都要人扶，却带着那么重的脚伤跳舞。
当他像别的成员一样跺着那条伤腿的时候，可曾有人想过，台下的观众有几个，是为他而来？

他这样做，究竟是为了谁，为了什么？

我去过去年十二月人气歌谣。
那天中饭扎堆聚集，全场暗下来的时候，她们闪烁的灯牌仿若星空般灿烂耀眼。
可我却被刺痛了眼睛。
我一块块数着，有他的、有他的、有他的、有他的。
可为什么，没有一快闪烁的灯牌，是属于我们的宝贝的呢？

我身边的中饭说，好喜欢XX，下次她要做一块XX的灯牌。
我身边的中饭说，我还有一块XXX的灯牌，比这块更大，下次我要带来。
我身边的中饭说，XXX真帅。
我身边的中饭说，XXX真可爱。
我身边的中饭说，XXX真讨人喜欢。
我身边的中饭说，韩庚啊，见过太多次，都不想见了。

这不是小说不是臆造，这是事实，是我亲眼看到的，亲耳听到的。

然而，我抬头看着台上的韩庚，他站的如松般挺拔，嘴角含着淡淡的笑意。
我们的宝贝，在韩国的舞台上，从来都是小心翼翼。
他从不耍帅、不装可爱、也不会刻意讨人喜欢。
他一直那么安静的微笑，那么安然美好。

我想起MKMF的时候，想起那个在台上跳舞的孩子，想起他的伤他的痛。
为什么她们总也看不见他的努力和坚持？或者是看见了，也不会放在心上吧。
从那时起我就知道，这个世界上除了庚饭，没有人会真心的心疼他。
韩庚他，真的只有我们。

我去过去年十二月的SBS歌谣大赏。

那天我在场外，看见他一个人穿着宽大的蓝色舞台装站在保姆车边。
风吹进衣服去，鼓鼓的一团，他整个人被包裹在里面，有些瑟缩着，像个娃娃。
脸上没有笑容，安静的站着，不知道在看什么，不知道在想什么。

舞台下的他，是不是已经习惯了这样的安静？
我想到身边的男孩子，二十出头的年纪，总是爱玩爱笑的。
而他，却安静的让人心都疼了。

那天等了一整场，他出来也不过十分钟的时间。
可他很高兴，谢幕的时候手舞足蹈，那身衣服把他衬的像个小孩子。
可我拍到的照片，却是他一个人站在舞台中央，小手缩在袖子里的摸样。
也许是觉得冷吧，像是被那种欢乐的气氛隔离开来。
旁边明明有那么多人，他可以依靠的，又有谁呢？

生活与现实，都不远远不像小说中描述的那么美好。
除了我们，没人把他当宝贝。

我去过今年二月SJ的首尔演唱会。

开场前，有fans通过大屏幕向成员发短信的环节，也会滚动成员们的照片。
成员们的照片不停的滚动，每张都得到震耳欲聋的回应。
而他的，寥寥几次，伴着稀稀落落的叫声。
我夹在那么多人中间，即使声嘶力竭，可却连自己都安慰不了。

《Marry you 》的时候，成员们带着fans痛哭流涕，真情流露抑或夸张表现，无迹可寻。
而他坐在我面前，安静的闭着眼睛，被隔离在伤感之外。
只是镜头再给到他的时候，眼睛里隐隐有水光闪烁。

不算是哭吧，这样的气氛是不属于他的。
我想，他是想到了什么。
这一路，一个人走来，冷暖自知。一步步走到现在，能有这样的成绩，能站在这个舞台上，对他们其中的很多人来说或许应该满足了吧。
然而我们却都知道，属于他的舞台，真正能实现他梦想的地方，不是这里。

那天，从中国来的庚饭，即使再三被HF排挤，踮起脚尖也要让他的灯牌在人群中亮起来。
那天，同感的绿色姐姐，冒着被赶出场的危险，即使被投诉，也还是拉亮了只属于他的烟花。

那些灯牌与烟花，在看台上看上去很美很美，即使不那么光芒四射，即使只是一瞬间的绚烂，却像黑暗中带着希望的一簇小小的火焰，把他的笑容映衬的温暖明亮。

在那个离我们不算遥远的国家，我们不能给他那么多的欢呼和掌声。但即使只有力所能及的一点点，他也总能感觉的到。
只要我们，不吝惜给予与付出爱。

我去过今年的815，SM家族演唱会。
我想这是我见过的他最快乐的一次。

那天我坐在同感的姑娘们身边。
那时的情景，当时觉得捧腹，现在想来，却总觉得被浓烈的爱和感动包裹着。
那天来的明星有很多，比他长的漂亮的、比他名气大的，当红的不红的，一次次从我们身边走过。
而她们，却始终端坐在椅子上，任身边的HF们跳起来跑起来叫得哭天抢地，始终淡定，没有任何表示。
甚至不像fans。
我当时想，她们真像几尊被供起来的菩萨^_^

可韩庚出来的瞬间，我看见她们忽然【噌】的从椅子上跳起来，一下子就站到椅子上去了。
她们用着和我们不同的语言，喊出的，却是我们心心念念的孩子的名字。
韩庚——韩庚——韩——庚——从头到尾，都是这两个字。
那一瞬间我终于明白，为什么这个网站叫同感。

同感——是因为我们有相同的感觉，对那个孩子相同的爱。

我想，也许还有人记得那个女孩子的自拍吧。他要走的时候，她用尽了最大的声音喊他的名字，看着他离去的背影，几乎带了哭腔。
韩庚别走，韩庚别走，韩庚，别走。
她那么爱他。
她们那么爱他，可还是把他交给了我们。
三、

我总觉得，自己的心情其实和HF很像。
自私的希望他回来，那样便能常常看到他。
可心里，却又不希望他回来。
因为明白能让他展开翅膀的地方，不在这里。

在他心里，最重要的是妈妈。
而他最离不开的，却是他视为生命的舞台。

他说，他是为舞台而生，为我们而生的。
可如果没有我们，他的舞台在哪里？
也许我们比自己想象的，对他来说更重要。
韩庚他，也许从没有对我们要求过什么。
他从来不会要求你只喜欢他一个，更不会要求说你只许喊他一个人名字。可他喜欢灯牌，无论在哪里他都喜欢。他也只是很可爱的说，他很在意大家是不是以他为本命的。
或许很多人是当他撒娇玩笑罢了。

我总以为在韩国，我们不能给他的，等回到中国后大家都会给他的。
可他回国后那一篇篇所谓的后记，那里面都写了些什么。
那些说自己是庚饭的姑娘，见到XX说XX好可爱，见到XXX说XXX好帅，韩庚出来的时候，反倒一个个平静的不行。
演唱会的时候，说XXX来一次不容易，所以要大声的叫。说从来没见过XXX，所以要大声的叫。可叫来叫去，轮到韩庚的时候，声音一下子就小了下去。
不是说你不喜欢他，不是说你不能喜欢他们。

只是为什么庚饭的胸怀可以宽大到这样的程度，可以从容的忘记那些伤害，那些委屈和眼泪。

我说这些，并不是为了把他从团体里面隔离出来，也并不是为了把庚饭隔离出来。可那一次次的教训和鲜血淋漓的伤口还在眼前。
有多少个现场，别家的饭在成员们都出来的时候活蹦乱跳，唯独轮到他的时候却装哑巴。
913的时候，我知道多少姑娘是一个人孤独的站在人群里喊他的名字，即使被身边的声音淹没，被白眼被排挤，也还是要倔强的喊，含着眼泪也要喊。

韩庚韩庚，我们宝贝的韩小庚。

四、

宝贝，因为你，她们比自己想象的更坚强、更勇敢，更明白什么叫做真正的爱。

她们千山万水去到现场，并不只是为了见你一面。
她们为了你变得勇敢无畏。
她们害怕的东西不多，怕的是你的灯牌比别家少，怕的是喊你名字的人没有别家多，最怕的是你在自己家里受委屈。
她们花高价买黄牛票入场；她们拼尽全力喊出你的名字，举起你的灯牌；她们不会为自己哭泣，只会因为你的委屈而流泪；她们为了你，宁愿做别人眼中疯狂的追星族。
为的是什么？

因为除了这样，她们无法让你知道她们爱你。
她们只能用这样的方式来倾诉对你的爱。
她们喊出的韩庚两个字，总是汇聚着千言万语。
一个个闪耀的灯牌，五颜六色，表达的其实也只是同一个意思。

各种各样的现场经历多了，国内国外，后记也看了不少，个中滋味，冷暖自知。

然而。
宝贝，她们从来没有想到过让你记住她们的脸，记住她们是什么模样的。
她们这样做只是想要你知道，无论你走到哪里，都有这么一群孩子们，愿意把心捧给你，毫无保留的全部都给你。

她们的名字叫庚饭，她们是这个世界上，最让我感动姑娘们。
一次次的，因为她们而更坚定和加深着对你的爱。

五、

我写下这些，只是想告诉和我一样爱他、或者比我更爱他的你们。

如果爱他的话，请让他知道。
无论你把他当偶像爱也好，当弟弟宠也好，当孩子疼也罢，当哥哥当榜样当爸爸= =什么千奇百怪的定位都好。
无论平日里你总是淡定也好、文静也好、不喜欢大声讲话也好，已经过了追星的年纪也好。
反正，爱都爱了，为了他，请把这些，暂时放在一边吧。
为了他，为了爱，为那些和我们同样爱他却不能去到现场的姑娘们，大声出喊他的名字，为他加油，举他的灯牌，为他哭，为他笑。
让他看得到、听得到、感觉得到我们的爱。
让我们满足他所有的小要求小撒娇，满足他小小的虚荣心和任性。
那些在国外没有的得不到的，在自己的家里，我们都给他。
好么？

不要想，我只是个小小的fans，我什么都做不了。
你能做的，其实很多。
0103 期待着

original article: http://sj.g.ifensi.com/thread/index/1310416/

i dont think this article only relates to hangeng, but rather to all of us, towards our daily lifes. How many a times have we actually neglected the people around us because we treat them as 理所当然? How many a times, have we ourselves perhaps felt the same way and yet we do the same thing to others? Countless perhaps too.
I suppose we all need the time to reflect, stop and look around us and appreciate what we've got. Just stop and put ourselevs in the shoes of others for once and maybe, we can get a totally different perspective already.

2009-12-22T10:50:00.003+08:00

Just read on the net about some rumours of han geng leaving suju.
i don't know if it's true but he posted this on this cyworld which is suppose is in response to the rumour (NOTE: I SUPPOSE so i may be WRONG):
。。。。。。
我现在人很好，我知道你们一直都在！
我爱你们~~~

hais...when i saw the news on the net, part of me started screaming to not believe the rumour but oh wells, i've calmed down. It's not in my nature to get too hysterical HAHA
anyway, it still came as a shock. knew that there would be such a day but didn't expect it to be so soon. hmm. some said it was only an advertisement tactic for their asia tour 2010. but what else can we do? i suppose that we can only wait and time will tell everything. meanwhile, just chill and don't get so agitated. when the time is ripe, han geng will step out and clarify everything. we all support him for who he is isn't it? haha

back tracking to yesterday, yep was quite fun i suppose. the photo taking was fun but my cam spoiled so i didn't bring my cam :( photos are all with other people, so i yall do post onto facebook, remember to tag me k! :D
some people are really 一鸣惊人 haha

k that's a short summary of yesd and going off to do work. need to tear myself off from the comp before i go find more of the news about the rumour and get agitated. LOL.

till then, take care and cya! :D

2009-12-20T10:35:00.003+08:00

:D:D

ignore the screaming -.- may want to lower the volume of your speakers first HAHA

[edit] try watching a show called 青春舞台on youtube. only 12 eps. :D
hahaha if u can guess who acts in it :D
off to do homework :D
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2009-12-19T20:31:00.002+08:00

HAHAHA
i am laughing super hard now that tears are forming in my eyes
HAHAHA
ok wait chill
...
...
...
i was watching 快乐大本营 online an ep that was shown in china when i was at haimen watching with my buddy
i was rewatching it and cause it was suju m on it
anyway, the show was damn hilarious i was laughing like mad
here's the url btw http://hd.openv.com/pro_play-hdprog_20091017_7115821.html

hahaha
the whole show is about 1 hrs and 45 mins long but it's worth it :D
shopped at far east today with tian, jasmine, weiqi and chong xian.
bought my yep attire and o.o
lol
nvm going back to watch my show :D:D:D

2009-12-17T18:24:00.002+08:00

back from usa finally and many blogs seemed so dead haha
usa trip had been a fulfilling and enriching one and i really learned alot
whether is it about usa or the people living there or perhaps even more about the people around me
oh wells nvm
photos will be up on facebook when i have the time to post them
yep and sqd outing soon
have to find a day to go out with teo
guitar song is killing me ):
missed out 2 sessions and shit man i cant play the 2nd piece urgh
im dead
mum gone to china with 3rd and 4th sis today.
so im at home with my 2nd sis and dad
but dad's at work now and sis went out to the bookfair @ suntec
so im alone at home surviving on instant noodles
haha nvm
i shall cook sth better for myself to feed on when i have the time and effort
slept through the day yesterday after i came home at 8 plus from the airport after arrival and breakfast
only woke up for lunch and dinner then went back to sleep
funny thing is when i was up for dinner, i asked my mum if it was morning or night cause i vaguely remember myself having lunch but i cant rmb if it was lunch or dinner plus my mum's flight was early in the morning
haha kinda stupid
spent the day doing some work, watching the shows i've missed when i was away in usa without my laptop and watching suju m music videos
really nice haha
and that reminds me of my bsp lun wen
i havent touched it for 2 weeks alr cause of the trip
oh no and good job well done -.-
i need to rush it out these few days with quality and quantity
jiayou jiayou

2009-11-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINXIN!!! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENWEN!!! :)

2009-11-30T14:55:00.004+08:00

[edit]

): i just watched momo love episode 7 and the commercial for the next episode is going to make me cry soon.

LOL i know there's bound to be people who are rolling their eyes going their and going wth but oh wells.

haha i realise i get touched and affected my drama plots easily. LOL. first it was the family's honour on how the bro was taking care of his sis (refer to previous post) and now this

HAHAHAHAHA

ok never mind i get affected easily but i get over it easily too :D

LOL nvm

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the stuff below is making my blog load very slowly so yup ps! HAHA

editted this on top so that you can see and not that it's your comp's fault

so chill and don't get fared up by kicking and/or punching the screen

HAHA

U

Marry U

到了明天(Blue tomorrow)

我抱着我

我的二分之一

至少还有你

迷 (Me)

HAHAHA if you haven't realise by now, i'm currently spamming super junior M songs though i'm quite slow -.- haha
but oh wells, i like the 迷, 到了明天 and marry u the most. LOL
gonna put the songs up onto mixpod if i have the time :D lala

1 more day! :D

2009-11-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

today, i watched 家门的荣耀for the first time ever, and the way the bro in the show took care of his sis made me really touched and envious. HAHA

somehow, i just dislike being the eldest secretly hopes for someone to come along and be like a big brother for me instead

LOL

but oh wells, dreams are just dreams -.-

so i'll have to learn to cope without such a caring brother LOL

but seriously, i've thought about what it would have maybe felt like to have an elder brother.

to have someone to look after you, to have someone to pick up fights with you but in the end you're always the one winning, to have someone to care about you, to have someone that you can talk to, to have someone who you know the shoulder will always be there for you to lean on. HAHA

o.o maybe i have too many requests for a elder brother that's why i don't have one LOL

it actually isn't the first time i'm secretly or rather not so secretly hoping for an elder brother to appear in my life. HAHA

but oh wells, i'm the elder sister with no elder brothers so yea -.-

plus even my elder cousins are like so far away and they aren't exactly close you know.

so those with brothers out there, whether younger or older, don't complain how your brother bully you or whateverso cause i believe you'll learn to appreciate them one day and know that some people like me who wish for a brother sometimes, don't even have one.

perhaps it's really 因为从一开始就拥有，所以当作理所当然，只有在失去了才会知道珍惜。因为不曾拥有，才会渴望，才会知道在拥有后要珍惜。

haha don't worry. this won't turn and become an emo post but just me lamenting on how i wished i had a elder brother LOL

3 more days! :D

2009-11-28T13:51:00.003+08:00

yay i'm going to own toccata soon :D

i'm like practising it everyday now cause i don't want to look as noob as on thurs -.-

but then i'll have to leave the guitar at home when i go USA and not tiuch the song again for another 2 weeks so i have another 3 days to own it

jiayou jiayou! i can make it der :D

HAHA

but my fingers are pain ):

class outing tmr :D

but i can't go cause i'm packing ):

i know zuoyue is going but oh wells ):

haha nevermind.

hahaha

lala i'm posting alot of random pictures these few posts. LALA :D

i like holidays cause holidays are the days that i smile the most :D

2009-11-26T21:18:00.003+08:00

back from dental and guitar :D

dental was ouch pain ): cause the dentist tighten the braces ):

could not swallow the food or rather cannot chew.

sigh

guitar surprisingly, i wasn't late :D yay

haha but i need to practise ALOT more cause i'm really bad at the score we are playing now

sigh nvm i'll work harder :D

loaned the guitar back today and supposed to practise it till i'm away to usa

which btw will be from 1st dec to 16th dec so you won't be hearing from me during this period at all cause i'm not bringing my laptop over.

anyway, i'm supposed to have already familiarized myself with the whole song by the time i'm back

so gg-fied haha

the guitar seniors are quite nice :D

which is of course a change for me la since u know. UG haha

(not that the seniors are not nice, but we can't just talk to them like that)

evan (spelt like that i think) took us for the sectional practise. then left midway for soccer. siew ting came in occasionally to check on us then told us to go out for combined.

LOL so we had section practise then combined and it was fun :D

i blushed alot today i think cause i keep making mistakes :(

but overall still thumbs-up :D

haha i freaked emily and jiayun out when i started cracking my fingers cause keep pressing on the strings then never stretch LOL

haha it was fun going home with wentian today

and class outing on sunday at sentosa :D

but i don't think i can go cause i need to pack plus teo won't be there either ):

sigh

oh wells, facebook is suddenly spammed by people doing some weird quizzes LOL

i have nth else to post about already so im blabbering -.-

:D:D

lala :D must smile more even if squadmates decide to bully me after guitar session today -.-

5 more days :D

2009-11-25T21:00:00.004+08:00

LOL. Toccata is driving me up the wall. LOL.

Never mind.

I shall persevere :D

yay tomorrow got guitar session :D

tmr got dental too ):

boohoo which means most probably i'll be late unless my dad sends me to school. :D

sounds great. haha

i shall go 撒娇 and pray hard it works. HAHA

alot of schools seemed to be having their grad night/prom whatever you call it these few weeks

facebook wall been spammed with friends being tagged in such photos

haha oh wells :D

counting down to USA trip :D

6 days!

but that means most probably i'll miss 2 sessions of guitar and that is NOT good news ):

and 2 weeks of burgers/sandwich and hopefully occasionally some CHINESE food. LOL

who knows, i may be sick and never want to step into popeyes/kfc/macs ever again when i return HAHA

that should be good news cause then i'll stick to chinese food and non fried food and they're healthy! yay -.-

hmm

recently, got stunned by a few news, most of which irks me and i find it urgh when i hear about them. haha

i hope to never have to hear these stuff again

by the way, whoever wants to help out for the yr 3 xplore as facilitators, please approach hanxi :D there'll be one dry run during the holidays and then on the actual day so in total taking up 2 days of ur holidays :D

lala now for some venting of anger and urgh-ness

some people are just pure jerks i guess

they go around making people feel like wow then wth -.-

what's the problem even if they are popular

just take a look at yourself cause no matter how popular you may be with anyone,

at the end of the day, your actions show

and you're just another jerk, no much better than any others who's you say you detest cause they appear as jerks to you

-.-

i guess so.

sigh whatever. don't be surprised if i stop talking to you one day cause it'll be the day i cannot stand you and your jerk behavior anymore

haha nvm back to some other happy stuff. went for bsp lesson yesd, had fun taking photos and basically through the whole session. :D

then had a nice dinner and went to shopping with yizhen and nien an :D (basically shopping = cotton on that's all) haha

dilly dally till 9pm around there and left for home. reached home at 10pm dead tired -.- haha

oh wells, it was fun anyway :D

nothing to blogged about already and i won't post sth like weiqi's on snippets of memories through these 4 years. HAHA unless maybe some other day when i super free :P lol

ok i'll end off with a

even if the sun goes down at one end of the earth

it'll rise at the other end of the earth

changing from a sunset, to a sunrise

so i choose to believe everything will be alright

no matter how bad they are

after a good night's sleep :D

2009-11-23T20:22:00.003+08:00

hmm today havent been a great day at all for me. woke up at the sound of my mum screaming at me to get up around 8 plus in the morning. took breakfast and i was shoo-ed off to do homework. FYI homework = biology, maths and chemistry textbook PLUS assessment books. grrr.

then went out to pack lunch back, came home, ate, bathed my sis, prepared dinner cause my mum's sick.

there's bsp usa trip session tmr. need to go to school. after that waiting for yi zhen to finish her netball prac, going to PEA dinner with her and nien an. Hmm, i suppose it's good that we're invited, but it's kind of weird, since our efforts weren't recognized by the school.

then on thurs, need to go for dental in the morning, pray hard that it's fast then rush off to school for guitar and AHH i dont have a guitar at home so i cannot practise. oh no and i dont know if i can be late cause my sms wasn't replied. shit.

and i decided. if i should go to people's blog, i should avoid reading people's post if possible cause they makes me feel damn shitty. Of course, it's got nothing to do with them. It's just me. It just makes me feel like people can have work to do, people are going out in twos and threes to shop, to walk around and stuff but what about me? I'm stuck at home with homework and the only hope of going out is to school. I'm not grumbling that my parents are forcing me to stay at home and that they want me to redo my yr 3 and yr 4 work for my own good but well, i don't like to stay at home all the time to study. Face it. The class chalet this year, i didn't even stay for the whole thing cause parents don't allow. Wanted to help out in the orientation next year but it burst into bubbles again cause parents don't allow.

Sigh. Nvm. i need to accept the fact that until my As are over, my life will still be controlled. Not that i mind that much, but well, people will still like to be out of control and relax once in a while right? HAHA

Xin xin still in taiwan and i miss her ): cause i have no one to talk to le. people all busy working. haha not that i miss her only cause i have no one to talk to but alo because afterall she's my sis leh. away from home for 2 weeks alr going 3weeks, how can i not miss her? HAHA. Hmm, my phone has been very quiet cause i dont have people looking for me anymore since they don't have anything to say to me. I realise during school time, most of my handphone sms revolves around people asking me stuff and me replying stuff. I don't really have much sms that is for fun or just chit-chatting and blabbering nonsense with people. HAHA nvm i shall learn to self entertain

today is probably my longest post in ages, but oh wells. oh btw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARICK!

haha. i realise im a person who likes to hold onto memories and the past. 拿得起放不下, that's what you call it and i need to learn.

sometimes, i just yearn to have someone close that will be with me, you know like a close friend. It's not that the friends that i have now are not close and that i don't treasure them, like what i said earlier, i treasure all of them as good friends and are thankful for their presence. But somehow, they are not u know, the kind of soul mates i suppose that i can say everything to. oh wells, i suppose whoever's reading this, sorry! haha i think you may have just wasting 3-5 mins reading this crap. HAHA

buh-bye :D lalala :D

2009-11-21T12:20:00.002+08:00

As i was cleaning and clearing up the cupboard underneath my desk just now, i came across many notes that friends had written for me, whether is it for my birthday or when i'm down and i realize, that i have been a discontented person. I had friends who cared about me, writes me little notes here and there, caring about me, cheering me up and yet, i had been discontented.

It made me think. Perhaps, all along i had been the kind of person that did not treasure my friends well enough and maybe even took them for granted. For myself, i had hated people that took friends for granted and taking a look at myself, i seemed to be one of those kind too.

I should have learned earlier, learn to be contented with what i have, and to know that friends are hard to come by. I hope it's not too late now and i will learn. I don't know how i'll start, but i'll make sure i do it this time. Many empty promises had been made, but it seemed that i had fulfilled none. How many empty promises had i made and not fulfilled? Countless perhaps.

Last, i would like to express many thanks to those that had been my friends and are my friends and i'm grateful that our paths crossed each other cause if you hadn't, i'm sure my life would have bits and pieces missing here and there. Each of you out there had made a difference to me, whether we were once close friends or we were just the "hi and bye" kind of friends. Also, i'm sorry to those that i had perhaps hurt unknowingly or irritated cause of my indecisiveness and my discontent.

I'll make sure that from now on, it'll be different.

2009-11-11T11:35:00.002+08:00

will be gone for 3 days starting from tmr :D

class chalet! yay!

but the games and the dares are sick =x

haha anyway still yay! haha

2009-11-07T20:58:00.002+08:00

my sis is flying to taiwan for one month tmr and i wont see her for one month and 2 weeks cause by the time she's back, i would already have flew to usa. sigh oh wells, im going to miss her HAHAHA

2009-11-07T17:43:00.006+08:00

saw this pic on blogskin and liked it alot. wanted to change that as my blogskin initially but decided not to haha. so here i am with this one that i quite like too :D

though it's black HAHAHA

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i realise that my blogskin looks different in IE and google chrome. LOL.

tempted to put songs in my blog but still considering haha ok. cya :D

paper in 3 days and i dont feel prepared at all. zzz

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2009-11-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

Today, almost had guitar practice but end up it was cancelled cause the cca dept. said that ccas are not supposed to touch the year 4s until after o lvls higher Chinese.-.- ok so I went home with xing fang and jasmine in the end. Parted with xing fang at the bus stop and continued on with jasmine. And wth some ppl are really inconsiderate. Ok. There was this guy who was sitting on the reserved seat on the MRT and this elderly guy came on board and stood in front of him. So what happened, there wasn’t any seats around so naturally, the guy was expected to give up his seat, afterall it was the reserved seat. But hell no even after people around was giving him the eye power le. Wth. So in the end, the lady beside him gave up the seat for the elderly. I seriously don’t know what’s the problem with the guy when after so many people are already giving him the eye power, he still has the cheek to sit right there as though the seat is rightfully for him. Grr.

Anw, babies are damn cute little things that you see around and they can really make your day and make you smile like nobody’s business even if u had a very tiring day :D but that doesn’t make me a paedophilehmrph. haha

2009-11-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

I've resolved to be more hardworking next year to prove to my parents that i can cope with both CCA and studies. Though i may have been trying desperately to do that to that same things for the past 4 years, i dont think i had done it well. Results these few days from the chi papers havent been very encouraging and the real paper is just one week away. I need to buck up really alot if not i would not be able to achieve my A1 or A2 and i would be in deep shit.

On a lighter tone, i will be going to USA on the 1st of december till the 14th. But i'll only reach back in singapore on the 16th -.-

Class chalet is at coasta sands pasir ris from 12 to 14th nov. Cant wait for that too. but it poses a problem. i dont have embarassing p.j. how?

im going for YEP :D but what is casual wear? LOL

school's going end in 3 more days time. According to ms ann tan, the tcher coming along with us for the USA trip, she said immediately after friday we are no only year 4s, but ppl in senior high le. Somehow, the thought of it freaks me out, perhaps, im not ready for senior high life yet.I have no idea what is waiting for me ahead, even though so many talks were already given to us. All i can remember hearing is how the teachers are telling us about the big leap from junior high to senior high. Was attempting to do the comprehension for the y5 common test just now and it freaked me out cause i dont know how to do. That's a really bad omen since comprehensions arent exactly the one that is supposed to freak me out.

Maths, we are still having lessons. Chinese too like duh. Geog ms pear arent coming in cause she had to invigilate O lvls. Bio we have been watching documentary, latest one on TB. Chem idk havent been seeing ms ng. Physics going through papers and doing expt tmr. LA watching movie and talking about next year subjects. So that sums up what i had been doing these few days back in school i suppose.

I want to watch my girlfriend is a secret agent but perhaps i should just either go watch it myself if not i should just settle with watching it online.

P.E. today was enjoyable. HAHA been deprived of any exercises these few weeks and i NEED to exercise or i'll grow really fat soon.

Nevermind. i have been online long enough and i need to go back to the terrorising comprehensions and chinese summaries. LOL

2009-11-01T13:17:00.004+08:00

haha ok. i deleted all the more emo posts in this blog in order to let it maintain as a "happy" blog as how it should have been all along. since i started it to let go of the emo past. LOL. ok. today must chiong finish nthe chinese hwk. i need to buck up for my chinese since it has been deproving like mad. zzz. these few days been blog hopping and thinking alot. i suppose some people have changed or rather maybe they havent but my point of view changed after im back from china. but to me, some people just arent the same when i see them now. nvm. they say it'll wear off after awhile i hope :D
i dont like uncertainty and i dont like the feeling of being lost.
the only way of overcoming them is to face them.
somehow, these few days felt as though i have just been wasting them off. i have absolutely no idea where im haeding and what im doing. and at the end of the day, what did i achieve and what am i going to do the next day.
oh wells. nvm i have to learn to be happier :D

一半 - 言承旭

一直等一个人等了很久
这一场独角戏是很寂寞
春夏秋冬我的窗口只有风经过
爱很深有多深我也不懂
你走后我的心变的脆弱
听一首歌也觉得痛
但我谁也没有说

右边的座位右边的枕头
都已经空了那么久
为你守候那是因为我已经看透
没有你的爱
这个我只是一半
不哭了不笑了
为谁努力我也不明白
没有人能取代
一个圆的另一半
我固执的等待
等风再把你带回来

一直等一个人等了很久
这一场独角戏是很寂寞
春夏秋冬我的窗口只有风经过
爱很深有多深我也不懂
你走后我的心变的脆弱
听一首歌也觉得痛
但我谁也没有说

右边的座位右边的枕头
都已经空了那么久
为你守候那是因为我已经看透
没有你的爱
这个我只是一半
不哭了不笑了
为谁努力我也不明白
没有人能取代
一个圆的另一半
我固执的等待
等风再把你带回来

言承旭 - 在KTV说爱你

朋友似乎有意不提起原来你这里
我的微笑太沉迷怜惜也许你已忘记
微亮灯光下的你还是一样美丽
有没有一首K歌可以给我勇气
说句对不起

麦克风在其他人手里遥控器传给你
我点的歌慢慢往上移越靠近越犹豫
不是唱到一半的我假装忘旋律
只是写词人太细腻描述我和你
过去揪着我的心

我的爱回不去我只能在KTV说爱你
散场之后抱着影子哭泣
我的爱播不停整一首歌还在当年
爱情只是现在你的眼睛最远的距离

麦克风在其他人手里遥控器传给你
我点的歌慢慢往上移越靠近越犹豫
不是唱到一半的我假装忘旋律
只是写词人太细腻描述我和你
过去揪着我的心

我的爱回不去我只能在KTV说爱你
散场之后抱着影子哭泣
我的爱播不停整一首歌还在当年
爱情只是现在我的关系最远的距离

我的爱谁在意我只能在KTV说爱你
却听见自己颤抖的声音
我的爱没有你这房间容不下我的伤心
因为你切歌的坚定停止我呼吸

haha but i prefer 一半 better :P

2009-10-29T21:45:00.003+08:00

sometimes, when i read the blog posts of certain people, i have this tinge of sadness. Often, i'll wonder if it was me who made them this way, if it was my fault that i was too harsh then to cause them to be what they are today. Idk. But if it was the case, i start to doubt myself, to think if what i had done then was right.

sometimes, things just perhaps dont go the way we want it to be. it's useless blaming the people all around you and hating it. just look around and you see that there will be another light that is shed onto the issue and you can view it with an open heart.

2009-10-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

damn damn damn happy to be back in spore and posting HAHA

ok i got stuff to chiong to finish

so see ya guys in sch tmr

p.s. does anyone still comes here? my tagboard is dead. oh wells. HAHA

pictures to be posted up soon

2009-10-11T21:05:00.001+08:00

yo ppl im in china now deprived of msn messenger, blogger and facebook. HAHA. but msn still ok cause can use ebuddy but oh wells, haha. the sun rise super early in the morning and sets super early too HAHA but anw, im enjoying the life here. quite fun. not sick anymore :D bet no one miss me right HAHAHAHA (except jasmine) LOL went to sun zhong shan tomb today o.o then went to some river. yesd got some epic episode of disappearing cockroach from the hostel room HAHAHA but tonight is more peaceful. went out with teh host family today and came back 1 hr earlier than expected and walked arnd for half an hour until i spied ppl back in the hostel block. LOL oh wells, ty to jasmine for helping me to post this when i cant use blogger and i wont be updating so much anymore. LOL. btw in case of emergency, can either sms or call me at 15024428798. rmb to add +86 in front :D

you're welcome weiwei :D - jasmine

2009-10-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

haha im actually at learn.dhs right now after abandoning that site for dont know how long. but it was to get down the bio stuff that miss koh posted so oh wells, at least it's a good start. (or bad since the paper is only 2 days /1 day away) HAHA but well, better late than never. LOL. tt's a poor form of consolation to myself. oh wells, i finished maths 1 revision today :D doing bio now and tmr plus physics. today have been very constructive with me keeping to myself and my phone only. HAHA dont worry i spent most of the time (99%) studying. 1% sms-ing ppl HAHA which is a good improvement :D oh wells, next 5 days! jiayou! shan't blog for the next 5 days and keep this self control on myself :D

i like myself when im productive. HAHA

lala im weird LOL

2009-10-03T19:09:00.015+08:00

lala spent the morning studying maths and went out with yizhen to get the presents for the china trip and got one bermuda.. was at bugis and saw lin yao then went to suntec city... omg i wont want to do another shopping in dont know how long anymore. it's damn tiring =x having a super big headache now and in a bad mood. nvm i shall go and mug and take my mind off zzz..

2009-09-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

found this on the net

It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to
embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful.
There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is
life, and in change there is power.
— Alan Cohen

2009-09-21T20:49:00.001+08:00

lala nice song :D

so sad ):
but i wanna see snow! :D

2009-09-21T16:23:00.002+08:00

keep the passion burning please

2009-09-21T11:14:00.002+08:00

lalala yesterday while everyone was at home studying hard, i was at mt faber at 3pm trekking -.- but oh wells, it was fun HAHA.. 20092009 yesd and my mum's birthday too! :D LOL LOL anw, walked the henderson waves, then walked back and walked up to the top of the mt faber. the balcony at the jewel box has a nice view :D looks out into the sea. great place to emo too HAHA then trekked someone and left at arnd 6 plus
walked to habourfront centre and had dinner there.. then shopped arnd abit and walked to vivo.. met eugene sir and amy maam there. LOL 2nd time see eugene sir alr haha last time met him with zhan jie sir at the library LOL.. parents walked to the open plaza and sat there for 1 hr..but the rest we walked arnd daiso before i got bored and started to explore level 2 with my friend. HAHA it was damn crappy LOL then shopped until arnd 9plus 10 and we left for home. so oh well,s what a day -.- w/o hwk HAHAHA but sigh i got tons waiting for me now -.-

for pics, go fb it's there LOL

bye ppl -.-

2009-09-19T17:00:00.004+08:00

因爲幸福如履薄冰

。。。

你知道嗎

有故事的人

才能創作出璀璨的作品

。。。
如果你忘不掉的過去，

那就乾脆不要忘記了

埋在心底裏，

作爲你人生故事的一部分

那沉澱的過去呢

就會變成養料

你要知道，

不能縂往後看呀

那樣你就不會進步

- 命中注定我愛你

this post is specially for you. just for you

2009-09-18T18:45:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i just wonder and think too much and it's bad cause i'll get demoralised after that. grr.

nvm i'll learn to take things as they come along with a smile.

2009-09-15T21:05:00.003+08:00

lalala :D:D

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jiayoujiayou people!! last lap le!! :D:D

EOYS will come and go asap :D

jiayou mugging! :D

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2009-09-14T20:09:00.002+08:00

are things just getting more simplified or have they become even more complicated?

2009-09-12T11:03:00.005+08:00

jia you quiz comp ppl!! :D
aka chih siong, wen tian, jun rong, nic lee, chin kiat, yoke ming, chen teck, reuben, seng wai and chong xian!!! :D

2009-09-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

haha im on a song craze recently and getting abit random LOL anw, 永遠在身 by 大嘴巴 is very very nice :D

永遠在身邊- 大嘴巴

Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活

眼淚她為你流過也為自己掉過
對於你們的愛她總是抱著堅強的笑容
錯過那些時間謝謝她的守候
是時候緊緊牽她的手帶她到你的城堡裡

最近還好嗎想念的心開不了口
枯想著妳有沒有好好過擔心著妳每天生活
你好嗎最近如何照顧身體工作加油
我一個人也會勇敢好好過不讓你擔心多一秒
想念著每天每秒我們故事每天每秒說好的事
兩個人一起散步是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使給我力量能夠堅持

那些關心問候翅膀一樣的雙手是我最幸福的所有
心裡面有你建的角落脆弱時我能夠躲一躲
妳愛我像翅膀一樣溫柔的手我要抱著妳不要再錯過
你的愛是最藍那片天空 cuz baby girl I’m coming back home

Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活

幸福少了妳在身邊不會完整
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網
人潮中朝你走來那張可愛微笑的臉孔
這份愛不是悸動守護一輩子的感動
這段路踏著幸福的每一步一起牽著手

心疼妳會睡不好總是縮在床的一角
我要回來給妳依靠哄妳看妳笑著睡著
照片裡你的微笑我們甜蜜得打鬧
好希望微風把思念代替我親吻你嘴角
想念著每天每秒我們故事每天每秒說好的事
約定好去看的風景愛譜成了詩
你就是我的天使給我力量能夠堅持

陽光燦爛午後我又在街上走你的影子不再寂寞
想到你的身邊到不了像個路人般看熱鬧
經過那個屬於我們的轉角走過兩個人曾經逛的街
那些店還有熟悉的畫面 oh baby girl I’m coming back home

Baby boy永遠永遠手牽手
一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得
我們要一起生活

不管晴天的時候
不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久
我們要一起生活

沒有辦法想像那畫面
一個孤獨的背影走在小公園
一顆心需要暖一雙手需要牽
故事要有美好結局需要兩雙手來寫
永遠不是只出現在童話裡的夢
在身邊眼淚加了蜜糖甜
這句點要完美畫在無名指上
承諾的開始
戀人們要一起珍藏

2009-09-08T10:59:00.001+08:00

HAHA this is a nice song :D

方炯镔 - 坏人
作词:马嵩惟作曲:方炯镔编曲:杨阳
专辑:好人?!Abin

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍

我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

2009-09-05T21:51:00.008+08:00

dont promise or do anything to or for anyone if you dont mean it. you'll just end up hurting the other person even if you dont mean to...

2009-08-31T18:25:00.002+08:00

gah ok im breaking my own promise but urgh i dont care le. i've been going on msn and stuff zzz.
had teacher's day celeb today plus our performance. was quite ok i guess though the music was kind of hard to listen for the beat since it was damn muffled.
then lingered around the dance studio then left for bugis with fiona and yi zhen at around 1.50om. fiona didnt go with us to bugis junction and went home so left me and yizhen. supposedly going to the natinoal library after lunch to hunt for reading materials for bsp but ended up sitting at yishinoya for god know how long talking about stuff even after we finished lunch and it was late 4plus alr -.- then decided to go home so we left for home -.- grr, i havent been so agitated for quite a while alr.. luckily/unluckily for me, my phone got locked by the puk code cause i was meddling around with the pin code -.- haha but oh wells, im ok alr and i didnt go and bash up my soft toys as i said i would LOL :D

lalala i need to be more receptive and responsible and hardworking :D

2009-08-23T16:14:00.002+08:00

gah i broke my own promise to myself to ban myself from blogger and msn.. zzz. i need to have more self discipline. HAHAHAHAHA.. oh wells. ok i shant ban myself entirely. shall come here and reply tags and not blog. LOL okok. i need to go do geog and physics le. =x today went for tuition and only then did i realise how much of my yr 3 chem i had forgotten >< i need to buck up. gah. haha all say no actions.. hmm i need to get into actions. HAHAHA :D

walked in the rain today :D luckily my mum didnt ask why i was wet since it wasnt very obvious :P hadnt walked in the rain for ages. evertime it rained, either im having lessons, or im at home alr not outdoors, or even if im outside, jasmine or wt wld be with me so they make sure im sheltered with an umbrella. HAHA.. i miss the times when we were back at mt sinai and we had to walk in the rain when we went back home tgt with the rest cause there wasn't enough umbrellas to go around. HAHAHA

2009-08-22T21:13:00.001+08:00

haha i just decided to go on haitus until eoys are over :D
dont think i;ll come here to reply anymore tags too.
i need to ban myself completely from the extra websites and especially msn
haha jiayou! :D

i'll prove you wrong because i know i can do well :D

2009-08-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

im super tired today ):
woke up at 5am left for sch at 6.45am.
went to sch for dance pract till 12.15pm then left sch with the rest and went to bugis to meet wt ate lunch and started our 5hrs of research at the national library -.-
sigh i almost fell asleep at the library HAHAHA
anw i managed to find the info i needed for bsp lun wen and i did revision for maths :D
im proud of myself :D
though it was stupid today cause my library cards had fines so i couldnt borrow the books. same for wt's card -.- but thanks to wee leng i managed to borrow the book :D
thank you!! xD

hahaha i said i'll stay happy but u said im lying so i'll prove you wrong :D and this time, it won't only be work done on the surface. it'll be work done beneath the surface too :D

2009-08-21T21:53:00.000+08:00

hahahaha today stayed back for physics consultation and yay! i cleared quite alot of my doubts :D haha... tmr going to sch at 8am to have dance prac :D
they got activity too can go see :D
then im going on a date with wentian!! :D HAHA.. awww those out there dont jealous k :D:D HAHAHHAHA
hmmm sch has been quite fun these few days though quite hectic =x
thank you chen teck for helping me print my LA flyer :D ps la not exploiting you xD
and winston too for the geog coast notes :D
and jasmine too for the curves and circles assignment and ur mbti analysis sheet :)

2009-08-20T17:52:00.000+08:00

hmm when was the last time i felt rain? haha i guess it was quite some time ago ): i like rain :D and it's raining now HAHA

yay complete LA and BP like finally :D

nice right :D haha..

next i have to move on to do maths revision alr. sigh. nvm. i'll survive :D LOL. ppl jiayou! 40 more days to EOYs and 50 more days to the nanjing trip :D hahaha cant wait for it :D
but that also means i have less time to finish up my lun wen alr ): sigh.
nvm i'll manage HAHA
i have to learn to be optimistic too :D

goals: to asbtain from vulgarities
to be more optimistic
to be happier and smile more
to complete my revision notes by w10
to achieve gpa at least 3.6

jiayou!! :D

2009-08-17T18:10:00.001+08:00

haha i was reading my sis der blog just now and i saw this:

"Hello you’ve got someone on the same boat as you here alright :D Let’s all not give up! We can be sad for a little while but that’s all we can let ourselves do, since it’s probably at least 85% our fault that we screwed it up (the other 15% blame it on the teachers who set the paper) but it’s okay! It’s not the end of the world, and we’re probably gonna feel low again when we get back the paper. Look, for all the tests there are at least 2 of it so as long as we don’t wallow in self pity we’ll do alright and kick some asses so don’t don’t don’t be discouraged :D If we fail, cry a while and try again! If we fail again, maybe you can cry a little longer and try again :D No matter what, don’t give up alright :D Moaning and groaning will definitely take place (for me at least) when I get back the tests/ just finished the tests and maybe it’ll happen for you too, and now we must think that if it’s our fault we shouldn’t cry for too long okay, it wouldn’t be worth it since we can’t change anything. It’s gonna be hard but we have to let it go and probably see the horrible grade stuck there forever. But are we going to look at it for long, or maybe move on and look for a better one? When a door closes, at least a window will open alright :D Don’t know how they make it happen but it does. Maybe the wind blew it open? (:"

hahaha she's damn optimistic. LOL. i should learn to be like her and pick up from my failures (esp from bio =x) HAHAH cause i always blame on the fact that im not a biology material. Like what ms fang said, i didn't manage to fight with the others to suck at the milk of the biology udder when i was young. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.... today squad breakfast and lunch was very fun :D we shall and should have more of these next time :D but more ppl please :D breakfast only me, wt,jasmine,xingfang, keith,nzh,jr,jt,qq went. lunch was btr with the 9 of us and zhou hong, sandys, weiqi, xinyue,nicholas, daniel, darick,ym,cx LOL. sorry if i missed out anyone else. hahahaha anw the breakfasts and lunches will get btr :D hmm nvm i shall go chiong my bsp alr since that's the reason why i rushed home today after school. LOL LOL..

LOL we still have 43 more days to EOY =x

jiayou ppl in mugging! i shall need to start on my revisions notes soon.. but first i need to settle the chem test this wed and the maths test in w9 and the geog and physics test in w10. HAHAHA jiayou jiayou! :D

credits: hip2horay.blogspot.com

credits: banban-studio.blogspot.com

:D:D:D

2009-08-16T19:42:00.001+08:00

lol my braces are orange :D wanted to put them the other time but then there wasn't orange available. but oh wells, i got them this time :D
maybe next time change to hmm pink or light blue :D
LOL..
chionging bsp now.

jiayou! to all who's chionging geog coast assignments :D

oh and a small bit of the metal wiring of my braces broke off yesd morning. i got a shock. LOL. it was washed out of my mouth when i was rinising my mouth after breakfast. imagine if i had swallowed it :O LOL

2009-08-15T23:38:00.000+08:00

urgh to prevent ppl from making wild guesses, anymore wild guesses, i shall explain my previous posts here. i dont owe anyone an explaination, but the questions asked by some of you to my friends or me are getting on my nerves. firstly, "don't ignore the people/person around you. because eventually you'll just make urself miserable when things turn unhappy with the people/person. that's what i learnt today, a lesson learnt and a mistake made. But i'll get over it and get on with life . :D" i dont know how many of you have misintepreted that but it's not referring to anyone in school nor anyone of close age.. i dont have to say who im referring to but no. it's not referring to anyone of the opposite gender or anyone in the school or around our age. so it's not a relationship prob -.-
secondly "i suppose it's true when they say people grow apart when the linkage that is holding them together is gone.there's no reason for us to talk anymore anyway and the contacts on msn are just lying there. i really hope we can be back to the old times when we can just crap to each other for don't knowhow long.it's not a good feeling to have when the people/person you always talk to alot suddenly become a hi and bye friend or when the conv on msn just dies down there hmm just say that the feeling is weird bah. i really hope we wont grow apart just because the linkage is gone. i always thought the bond was meant to be forever.sigh" this was and still is meant for a group of ppl that i have been very close with for the past few years. Note it's GROUP OF PPL not PERSON -.-

lastly, if you dont believe me then suit yourself, but please la keep your own questions to yourself can. i srsly dont see a point why im making these kind of clarifications about my blog posts here. but hell yes, im doing it. why, because there are ppl who likes to know who im referring to and thinks that i cant get over a certain person and am ignoring whoever it is. and as for the whoever it is, i dont wish to know. -.-
im really pissed off by the troubles caused because ppl misinterpret my blogposts, that's why im doing this retarded thing by explaining things i'm not obliged to do. urgh. and last thing. if you really have the urge to ask. ask me and i can tell you an answer. dont EVER go bother my friends. isnt' it btr to hear from the actual person rather than someone else -.- if u dont have the guts to ask me straight in the face, then dont think too much about my blog posts -.-

2009-08-15T21:39:00.001+08:00

hmm is it just me or is it that there are less and less ppl coming online these few days. HAHAHA.. maybe it's nearing EOYs le bah. sigh. Maybe i'm just not mugger enough.. HAHA.. i should really improve on my homeworking attitude. LOL. becoming more and more lazy esp this term =x LOL

for every action there is an equal and opposite ~~reaction~~ consequence

2009-08-14T21:16:00.008+08:00

Activity times:

POP photos

NPDP:

Speech Day:

Annual Camp:

CNY:

lalala i took damn long to upload these photos =x
anyway, credits to zhenghui, keith and myself :D

2009-08-14T19:34:00.001+08:00

LOL!! according to weiqi, my previous post sent out alot of wrong signals. LOL. to those that are thinking too much because of my previous post, no i didnt break up with anyone. furthermore, i'm not even involved in any relationships hence why would i even have any breakups-.- ok that's clarification 1.
clarification 2, sorry to those tt i snapped to today. wasn't in a good mood, from morning till after school. had to return my full-u today and i very emoish alr. then i didn't do as well for chem prac so it contributed to even more emo-ness today

don't ignore the people/person around you. because eventually you'll just make urself miserable when things turn unhappy with the people/person. that's what i learnt today, a lesson learnt and a mistake made. But i'll get over it and get on with life . :D

2009-08-12T18:31:00.002+08:00

i suppose it's true when they say people grow apart when the linkage that is holding them together is gone.
there's no reason for us to talk anymore anyway and the contacts on msn are just lying there
i really hope we can be back to the old times when we can just crap to each other for don't know
how long.
it's not a good feeling to have when the people/person you always talk to alot suddenly become a hi and bye friend or when the conv on msn just dies down there
hmm just say that the feeling is weird bah
i really hope we wont grow apart just because the linkage is gone
i always thought the bond was meant to be forever
sigh

i emoed abit today
but yea i'll be alright soon by 8.30pm

2009-08-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

booooo ):
i lost all my coastal notes ):
and i got geog class assignment tmr ):
any kind soul to send me their HANDWRITTEN/TYPED OUT notes? :D
i dont need the coast handout alr. LOL
sigh sigh

2009-08-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

haah today wasn't really what i had expected. the dinner turned out much more fun :D:D met 3 new ppl, one girl 15 yrs and 2 guys, one 14 and one 22. LOL.. we were fooling around through the whole dinner. HAHAHAHA.. damn funny :D then we crapped and everything LOL..
me and the girl agreed that guys are most qian bian when they know that some girl like him and they pretend not to know anything about it. LOL! nvm no link. HAHHAHAHAHA but yup main point is that dinner was very fun :D oh and hmm today we managed to complete the proposal :D much more productive that discussion online. HAHAHA..
sch starts tmr and im not looking forward. HAHA.weird. im becoming weird. LOL nvm :D
bye world :D

2009-08-09T20:34:00.005+08:00

haha this year ndp show not bad quite nice. LOL... was watching it on tv just now over dinner. haha..
very proud of myself today cause i finished my revision notes for 7 topics of physics. yay :D hahaha..
hmm tmr is going to be busy.. meeting yizhen at city hall at 11 then take lunch then go tanah merah mrt at 1.30 then go chunseng's hse to discuss stuff with the others... after that still must rush down to orchard for dinner with my family and my dad's classmates. blah. haha.. i dont like to go to dinners like this.. very weird..LOL..
slept at somewhere after 1.30am last night or rather this morning cause i was talking to yi zhen on the phone from 1210am till 130am haha.. around there la. broke my record =x supposedly called her to disucuss stuff ended up talking about other stuff. haha.. hmm must learn to control how long i talk on the phone.. HAHAH.. talked till yi zhen's phone went flat -.- LOL.. then went to bed but couldn't sleep, so tossed and turned till 2am? HAHAHA.. but that not the main point. the main point is that im becoming nocturnal. =x which is not good cause i still wake up at the usual time. ie im losing my sleep! :( have to do something about it. LOL
hmmm shall go and do my work alr =x a busy day outside tmr means tt im losing my mugging time. LOL.. im becoming a mugger. HAHAHAA
51 more days! =x

2009-08-09T15:10:00.002+08:00

LOL i was at youtube and i saw this mv :D

LOL i didnt know our squad song's mv was so emoish HAHAHA

2009-08-09T10:32:00.006+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!! :D

2009-08-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

yay. haha i wanna thank those who helped me in deciding and improving my lun wen topic yesd :D
i.e. jun rong, winston, keith, zuo yue, felicia, daphne. i hope i didnt miss out anyone :D LOL!

2009-08-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

decided to create this new blog for myself, to start afresh :D
might as well leave all the unhappy memories behind..
seemed like i emo-ed alot there..
undeleted that blog but locked it.. couldn't bring myself to delete it forever..
oh wells

smiles :D